Life has no smooth road for any of us; and in the bracing atmosphere of a high aim the very roughness stimulates the climber to steadier steps, till the legend, over steep ways to the stars, fulfills itself.

W. C. Doane

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Got some demons to chase

I sit here, alone in my room, with nothing but the sound of the outside's cold winds to keep me company. A nagging voice sits in the back of my mind. One that's been speaking quite loudly as of late. You are not loved. You are alone. Though I know there are people that may contest this, life has shown me that thoughts that float in my mind, do so with the utmost accuracy. You may tell me you love me today, you may say that our friendship is forever but the truth of the matter is, one day you will walk away.

These demons that lay dormant within me for periods of time rear their ugly heads every now and again and haunt my soul. "You're not good enough" They whisper in my ear. "No one really loves you all that much" Somehow I believe them.

I'm working on it, every day is a little better than the next. Hopefully someday I can look back on these posts and say to myself. You were loved, you were always loved. Not only are you good enough but you're better than you ever expected you would be.


  1. You are loved by many people Leila, please don't ever forget that. Hugs.

  2. While these feelings are normal, and everyone has experienced them at some point, it doesn't make it any easier to cope with them while you are in the moment. I think your self-awareness is a great strength in conquering these feelings.

  3. Thanks folks, i think like many things in life i have good days and bad. Most days are pretty awesome and filled with light but every now and again i get days like that one. Thanks for the support, helps lift up the spirits for sure :)